Friday, March 18, 2005


In 29 days i shall be 21. It's nice that i had survived this long. I hope that i can endure another 25 years at least. How was my first year of being twenty? It was very experiencing. From moving away from home, to supporting myself, to getting my first creditcard, to almost maxing it out already, to finally learning to balence my budget, to applying to school, to living out one full year of hell at the East Side Mario's franchise (i think i've paid my dues there, and now it's time to escape their soul-sucking clutches), to making my friends laugh, to then pissing them off, sometimes with my blog, through spells of sickness and homesickness, I think i did pretty well for myself. Well at least i think so anyway.

Am i ready for another year? hell, yes! Another year here? I'm not too sure about that. I tell you one thing this year that i didn't learn, and that was decision making. I'm still the terrible decision maker I always was. Perhaps that's a skill you learn when you reach level 21.

speaking of developmental skills, i noticed this a few months ago, i just couldn't be bothered to write about it. I found out that each of the places that i worked at, however horrible they may be. There was always someone that i could bond with. And from this someone i learned one thing from them. During this year at ESM oakville, i learned compassion and kindness, (not that i already had those qualities, I did learn more about them however) ESM huntsville, i learned from my friend there, not to take crap from anyone, if they try to screw you over ( a skill i'm still perfecting).
At Jester's, i learned from my boss, that a job is simply a job and no matter how far they push you, you can just step out of the way (by quitting) and then walk freely. There is always a limit.

Then at grandview, my boss there, taught me to have a good time in the workplace, i mean it's not just a place for horrible work, it's also a place of fun, sometimes.
Year before that, I think when i supervised at Grandview, that was the first year that i didn't have anyone to look up to, and that people looked up to me because i was in a position of superiority. I hope that i did alright there, and wasn't a horrible boss. I really wasn't ready for it.

so yeah...
better years await us...rustedhalo


Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Midnite Dawn Photography


Wednesday, March 09, 2005

an attempt to tip the scales 

it's funny how people react when they are in different situations. some people change a few details, leave out certain truths, or completely lie flat out to your face. It's even more hilarious when you know that the person is lying to you.

There's this guy at my work, whom everyone seems to dislike one way or another, i don't think this guy even realizes that he is despised by so many people at work. And it's not like he doesn't deserve it either. He's lazy; he doesn't like to do his work; he does everything half-assed and therefore screws everyone else over because his duties do not get done and we have to end up doing them after he leaves.

anyway, the point of this blog is not to point out his faults. I mean, we all have our flaws. i don't really mean to be mean or angered towards this guy, i'm just telling the truth about matters. Anyway...

So it's this guy's birthday today, and a couple of nights ago, he asked me to take his close lastnight. I agreed because it's his birthday, right? And i guess he hed this thing planned at a bar and he asked for people to come out to celebrate the annual day of his birthday. Throughout the entire night (he wasn't working that night), people were debating whether or not to go to this planned birthday bash. I feel bad for this guy because all he wants to do is spend his birthday with people he thought were his friends. So the clincher of the evening was when he actually came to one of the cooks working and said "i'm leaving now; it would be cool if you showed up." I just felt really sad when i heard that. It's like he somehow knew in his heart that people weren't going to show up. There's nothing worse than spending your birthday getting drunk by yourself surrounded by strangers, I don't care how much of a jerk/lazy bum you are.

It's like that everywhere i work, everyone always talking behind your back. It's pretty crazy how everyone hates everyone during work situations and everyone is pretty much looking out for themselves. There's this other guy, who gives me rides to work and back, who i'm rather fond of and who i think is pretty much my only real friend at work, who always assumes that people are going to screw him over at work, but he always tries to help people out as much he can because of that. He thinks it's pretty sad (and i agree) that people's intentions are always 'me first, you later' attitude, but i guess that's how the cookie crumbles.

and that's the way it was
better years await us...rustedhalo


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